friday - 28/7/06

I came home feeling discouraged and helpless. People reading this who've been to today's cell meeting must be confused why. I'm gonna talk about the meeting later..

Well I sms-ed Sheng la..And like..He would ask me a few questions about how I've been; we would exchange a few sms-es or what before he would say he had to go. I have this sinking feeling that its because he doesnt want me to ask him to go to church.

Maybe he's different from me. I gotta understand that. Not everyone is like me...Proud of Jesus and so on fire. Sigh I really duno what to do. I feel compelled to ask him for service and cell but it is always jeopardized by satan.

I see what satan's trying to do but Sheng doesnt. He thinks I'm thinking too much. That everything I talk about is associated with Jesus in one way or another. Its not like I'm trying to harm him with the Word. If anything, it helps him loads in one way or another.

Belle, Mike, Lamb, pls help me pray for him. This time is rough for new believers like him.


I had a rough time this morning. When I knew that cell was going to use my house for meeting, I had to rush home to get everything done by 1830. So that meant I had to leave art early. The funny thing was, Mdm Lim reacted especially strongly today. She scolded me like never before.

It wasnt the first time I left early for christian reasons but this is the time when she scolded me the most. I guess it was a test la..And I didnt like the fact that Gab and Shumei used that as an excuse to get out of art too.

Everything went pleasingly well, except for the fact that it rained while we were walking to my place. But thank God that was the worst.

There was this special time la..That Sis Cat wanted to show us what was gonna happen tomorrow with Rev. Mike Connell.. She had this session of identifying people's helplessness and surrender to this particular sin. She would pray for you and drive the unclean spirit from you.

I was looking down la, when she was looking for someone to pray for. I really hoped that she wouldnt pick me. For some reason I just didnt want my weaknesses to be shown to everyone. It was a first-time experience for me. You wouldnt believe the fear I had when I was standin there looking at her.

What she said..struck me cuz she saw right through me. I didnt knw whether to be scared or thankful someone here understands me without me having to say it out. All in all..It was great. After so long..I'm finally released from the past. From those moments and those thoughts.

I'm not afraid of any trials that may come my way. I'm going to go through this week and this life in a great way, knowing that God is the Way, the Truth and the Life. He'll bring me through any dark valley of life..Because they are only TEMPORARY.

I AM A NEW CREATION IN CHRIST JESUS.